“Why am I so afraid?” I asked my counselor tonight. “Please. Just tell me. Why am I so locked up with fear about my kids? Why do the stakes feel so high for every decision?”
“Here’s the deal with fear,” she started. “Fear tells us a lot. And one of the things fear tells us is what we value. The reason you have so much fear surrounding the well-being of your kids is because you value them so highly. That’s so beautiful and good. But the reason your healthy fear has slipped into paralyzing anxiety is because you’re under-valuing yourself.”
I cried for about an hour as I processed that truth bomb. Here’s me thanking fear for protecting me and my family all these good years. And here’s me doing everything I can to loose the chains of anxiety and take care of myself.